wave of stoplights part 2

I’m a car in my past life. See? Lagi akong nag zzoom sa kung anuman napagtripan ko without thinking what might happen. Kahit anong consequences pa gawin ko, I just move on in my top speed. I bear this in mind: The coin has two sides. No matter what I do, meron at merong mangyayari na hindi mo magugustuhan.

That’s why I never slowdown. Siguro yun yung mali ko. I always expect something nice and good at the end of the road. The end will be like this: people will admire me of my talent and skills that’s why I’m exerting all the oil and gas even if it kills me.

And obviously, wala ako sa drag race.

I’m not the best and fastest car in the world. I’m just an average car na tipong pang mass produce lang., na makikita mo araw araw sa daanan at di mo na susundan ng tingin kasi nga, average lang. And when I’m in a rough road, lagi na lang umiinit ulo ko to the extent that I can’t control the pressures. Of course, my passengers will bug me. Sisisihin nila ko sa lahat ng dinaanan ko dahil ung mga dinaanan ko, yun yung way para madaanan ko si rough road. Gets? Hinde? o tama na…

At sa dami ng dinaanan ko, bakit parang may mali?

and to think of it, I just saw the stoplight suddenly turned red.

I can’t move on. Some of my parts are damaged, but my passengers wants me to move on because I manage to beat that red light once; pero siguro tama na yung once, gusto ko naman sumunod.

Tinignan ko yung left, then right. Wala namang pulis.

Tinignan ko yung harap, then likod.

I don’t see some cars. I see my friends.

They’re waving and smiling at me.

The yellow light turned on.

I move slowly.

This is the First time in my life that I need to control my speed. I’m looking for a pit stop to repair the damage; but see? di ko mahanap. The road is so narrow and its not clear anymore (may fog ) so I need to focus more.

Siguro nga, malapit nako sa finish line. Konting… andar pa…

waiting shed

WARNING!

mahaba tong entry na to promise. Kung bored na bored ka lang tsaka mo na lang to basahin ah? ^^

wave of stoplights

Nasa ayos na lahat. I had a lot of plans last sem and it ruined. Yes, i’m prepared na kaya ko magdahilan ng madaming madami to give way for my thesis/acads but I’m not prepared na tatanggihan ko lahat sila… as in ALL OF THEM!

Yes i know, lahat ng importanteng okasyon eh tinanggihan ko na. Binyag, birthday, kasal, debut, debut  ng album, anniversaries etc. and I just thought,

“tama nga ba yung ginawa ko?”

House and school-parehas lang naman ginagawa ko. Pagkakaiba lang nun eh pwede ka humilata sa bahay pero sa school, syempre, may susuway sayo. Of course, you get the chance to enjoy the company of your friends in the classroom. At nung biglang dumating na ang deadline. Ka-boom na lang kaming lahat. Parang sumabog na lang ako sa sobrang inis.

Oo. di ko na beat yung deadline ni ser.

At oo din, marami kaming di nakahabol.

For the whole sem, I didn’t get the pinakaaasam na grade. I flunked. ano pa nga ba?

Lahat na nga ginawa ko, pero kulang pa rin? Parang nagluto lang ako ng sopas pero kulang pa rin ng asin. Kakainis diba? And looking back to what I did 4 yrs ago, nag enjoy ako kaya ko bumagsak. Ngayong nagkulong naman ako sa kwarto, bagsak pa rin? anubayun madam auring? Naglolokohan na lang po ba tayo?

And I’m here. Nakakawala na ng gana sa totoo lang. Wala nakong pwedeng isakripisyo kundi katawan ko na lang na tinorture na sa thesis. Deym. Huhu.

Lahat na nawala saken. I lost my friends, I lost myself, and I even lost a lot of money! Luging Lugi pre. Luging Lugi.

****To be continued****

new perspective

Change matters. As a matter of fact. Changing means maturing, or maybe your tired of your routines that why you want to change like me

well,It’s normal.

but weird.

All you have to do is let go of your old self and embrace the new one.

…and i’m talking to myself.

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Bands:

Panic! at the disco

Nalula ako sa mga updates and interviews sa mga favorite bands since freshie (2005) and alot of them had change. Recently, Panic at the Disco splits up. I love the band with its new lyrics and beat. Something that is uncommon that you can have different meanings in one music. (Not just love and sex. .) Theyre one of the bands that doesn’t stick to there genre and try something new. It’s nice that you want to establish yourself and grow outside of the box so I think, it’s not bad at all. and,Hearing different genres in music is a real music enthusiasts—if your really into there music huh? First time I heard about them is when I came across to a my chemical romance fansite and people there were posting (starting)indie bands that’s why i knew some bands before theyre go mainstream. Too bad, kanina pako naghahanap kung nag eexist pa yung fansite na yun pero err… wala na. (2005 pa yun pre. malamang, vanish na yung site)

Heniway, Panic! at the disco nga.

Last august, (or july ba yun dave?) I’m looking for the p@d !soundtrack of jennifer’s body but its not out yet. Puro stream and demos lang naririnig ko. But hey! nakakalat na siya sa net. just try to look for it and listen.

 

i set my friends on fire

parang dati lang puro album art lang nakikita ko sa youtube and Im shock na may music video na sila. Cool~

Local: taken by cars

this techno band puts me on! I just think na sikat na sila because people around me talks about them. Di nako nag iisa. lol.

Local: tether

first time I heard them is in mayric’s. techno-robotic naman sila and I’m glad, kasama na sila sa gig ng taken by cars. Nice one!

Local: April morning sky

Don’t know if theyre mainstream already or not, but when I go to a summer gig and some people that I’ve talk to, people were looking for them so i think theyre famous to us, if not to the mainstream peeps

Local: Letter day story

Nescafe soundskool is their biggest break last year. I  heard their sounds on the FM’s at pinipilihan talaga yung mga mall tours nila. Nice one! Medyo iba nga lang yung demos na binigay nila compared to their album.  May acoustic versions pa! nice nice nice. I admire the guts and effort they exert to reach the ‘top’.

From first to last

for two years, I never heard about them. Medyo nagsawa nako eh. At nagulat ako that there former vox is not there vocalist anymore. I just heard a different voice in the same band. The beats and lyrics of the music is still (one) of the best

Niluluto mo ba to? Nasusunog mo ba to? Ahh oo. Kanin nga.

After that incident, I realize na:

-you must break your own principle in order to survive

-there will come a time that nobody will able to help you

Saturday kasi to.

Every weekends, pumupunta sila tita, mga pinsan ko at lola ko sa bulacan para samahan ang lolo ko na na-isolate dun. (kahit nung di pa kami lumilipat, ganun lagi routine nila). Eh may pasok kasi ako ng sat at tinatamad talaga ko umuwi dahil nakakatamad talaga. So, pag kumakain ako, either iwanan na lang nila ko ng makakain o bumibili na lang ako sa friendly karinderya.

First time dod. First time na kinorner nako ng tadhana para palitan na ang desisyon ko na hintayin ko na lang na mag asawa ako saka nako magsasaing. Balak ko pa nga, di nako matututo magsaing at sabihin ko na lang sa future asawa na:

“ako na lang maghuhugas ng plato, tapos ikaw nalang magluluto ah? Game?”

Pero hindi. Sa tv lang pala yun nangyayari. (weh?)

Gumising talaga ko ng maaga para pumasok ng maaga sa school. Akshalli, nagpakabibo talaga ko gumising kasi, lagi ako late sa subject na yun. At ang unang gagawin ni wei? Hahanap ng makakain sa labas.

Pagbukas ng pinto, pagbaba ng hagdan, at pagbaba pa uli, parang may nakita akong kakaiba. Ay hindi, normal na nga pala to. Kagigising lang, sorry.

Panic meets Wei. Gutom nako promise. At wala nako makain sa bahay. Tae, sayang naman yung gising ko ng maaga. Di nako makatulog, umiiyak na tyan ko sa gutom.

Anong ulam?

Hmm may baka na niluto dito. Pero masarap pag may kanin para busog

Ok.. noodols na lang tayo tols.

Wala pre.

Juice?

Wala din

Aha! May nakita akong yosi! Hooo~! Solb!

Pero dipala yun kadali. I need to decide:

A: ignore the pains. Immune ka na dito diba?

B: papakin na lang yung natirang ulam.

C: magsaing ka na para solb solb na talaga.

Syempre, matigas ulo ko, kaya A muna ginawa ko. But, after some minutes, I decided na magluto na. Do or starve lang yung choices, at wala akong balak mag diet.

First and last time na nagsaing ako eh highschool pa. At nasunog pa. Kaya, tinawagan ko na nanay ko kung pano magsaing. Hay, kaiyak.

…and then, while my mom is busy teaching me how to cook, Im busy looking for rice grains. Anong silbi ng pagtuturo saken ng nanay ko kung wala naming bigas?

Ma, nasan yung bigas?

Andyan, sa may cabinet sa baba.

Huh? Wala namang cabinet sa baba? Ahhh… muka namang walang bigas. Ay! Nakita ko na.

Tapos..

Tapos nun…

Ginawa ko naman yung tinuro ng nanay ko. Okay naman. Nalagay na sa kalan yung kaldero. At pinabayaan ko na lang siya maluto mag isa. Basta, ang golden rule na natutunan ko sa barkada ko nung highschool, pag naaamoy mo na yung kanin na nasusunog, luto na yun.

But I never expect it to be that tutong.

Siguro, kung busog ako nung mga panahon na yun, di ako magluluto, matutulog na lang ako uli at mananaginip na lang ng nilagang baka na lumilipad sa kalawakan.

Pero, may kung anong kapangyarihan ang gutom para maappreciate mo yung amoy at muka ng kaning tutong. Akshalli, naubos ko yung kanin with the ulam op course!

(last week post pa dapat to… and then, this weekend again, Nakasunog uli ako. huhu… i quit!)

clover

Ewan kung anong meron saken at nakadikit ata lagi si kamalasan kagabi pa! Sabi ng lolo kong intsik, magingat daw ako hanggang  july 21 dahil ‘malas’ nga daw ako… Malas nga ba??o sadyang tanga lang?

shooting star

Ngaun lang uli ako magsusulat ng rebyu.. (err..meron nga bako ginawa ahhh? haha!-lol..meron..remember garbage?)

niwei…

Naging peborit ko na to circa 90’s pa lang. Narinig ko to sa isa sa mga tapes ni tita kasama na yung orient pearl…

But I’m not talking about orient pearl ngaun ah?? It’s just a song na naging brand ko na rin whenever I feel like looking at the night sky…

And im just happy, kinanta to ng maryzark at pupil. They both play that song in different tempo(?!) or beat…or wahever..

Maryzark play it cool and pupil of course, play it soft. Ang ganda sobra! Lalo na nung narinig ko ng live na kinanta to ng maryzark. hehehe

The song originally comes from the teeth and yeah, ang saya mabuhay ng 90’s kahit kiddo pa lang ako nun ^^,

sink swim pt 2

Walang meeting na naganap, walang yosihang nangyari between us. In short, di ko siya nakita. May mga events na pwede ko siya makita pero ako na umayaw. Bakit? wala lang.

Loser.

High and low

I have this childish hobby to look upon the sky kahit na wala akong makitang stars and moon at clouds…

ganda talaga kahit color blue, orange, gray lang makikita ko. Sa lahat ng ginawa ni god, eto pinakapaborito ko kasunod yung sea.

bakit?

endless.

missed

Ngaun, medyo tahimik na buhay ko. Hindi na naging interactive ang buhay ko simula nung kinalimutan ko na din mag isip. Somehow, my life is quite simple. And boring.

Namimiss ko na yung:

-mga umaatikabong aksyon. Wala nang conflict. all is happy and well. Naiisip ko na naman gumawa ng ’stupid things’, yung magagalit buong pamilya ko…tapos, magpapakaemo ko sa isang sulok… hmmm maglaslas na lang kaya ko? ahh.. mag ddonate na lang ako ng dugo sa blood bank!!! MAGALING! MAGALING! (<<<<may magagalit ba sayo nun wei?DI MO NA BA NAALALA NUNG BINABALAK NA NI TITA NA MAGDONATE KA PERO PUMALAG KA KASI NATAKOT KA SA LAKE NG KARAYOM AHHH???!!)

-Pumunta ng mga concert.Kelan ba yung last?? last year? o last last year?  Totoo lang, naubos na mga kaibigan ko dahil lang sa pagmmoment ko. LOL.

-tumambay sa labas…mageenjoy lang na nakaupo ka, nakatingin sa sky and the passersby, and by the end of the day, you’ll appreciate all the things that you just saw.

-mangulit.

-mga pinsan ko.

-lola ko (father’s side)

-pumunta sa mga opis (opistal,opiscourt) ng mga tita ko (father’s side), tas sasabihin ng mga officemates nila: “ang gwapo gwapo naman ng pamangkin mo!” LOL.

niwei, ewan ko ba sa mga tao dito sa bahay kung bakit ayaw pa nila pauwiin erpats ko. Eh ano kung walang pera at biglaan siyang pinauwi ng bossing niya? hayydon’t care. Mahalaga, andito na erpats ko, kahit wala siyang mauwing pera, kahit nga ba maging tambay kami pare parehas sa bahay, at may bago kong kalaban sa computer…ayos lang. Basta, andito na siya. Period. No erase. =)